Thursday, October 6, 2011

Love Letter



My dearest LT (currently 3.5),

After a very precious 2.5 years of knowing you, I'm gaining clarity on the path I'll be joining you on. Stepping back to my "waiting period" and wondering if I was paired with your fragile self because I'd need to protect you, shelter, help you find "your space." Ummm, not so much.

The truth is that I always felt your strength but as you were packaged in a significantly underweight body with frozen eyes, it made me doubt if I was best suited to give you everything you needed. As, I prepared for the mother mindset, I surrendered to the fact that you needed an advocate. Someone who cared and fought for you and that I knew I could do. That's all I started with, that one intention.

What has unfolded over the last couple years has blown me away. You, my sweetest, are a magnificent force. You are unlimited. And that responsibility/honor in providing a framework for growth envelopes me especially as you sprint through expression. As a single working mom I hope that I will parent you in way that encourages your best self. Not lying - this feels unattainable at times. But because what I do understand is that a series of choices guided by energy & intent can manifest into more than I can imagine.

So here I start...with a full heart and the goal of bringing shape to a large mission.


WHAT I WISH FOR YOU:
Acceptance & love will pour through your pores
The small things and honest moments will fill you with happiness
Hope & faith will be on autopilot
You will live balancing peace with drive
You will trust - 1) the "master plan" 2) your gut 3) me
That I will live my life as a trusted compass that serves you as a healthy reference point


WHAT I KNOW FOR YOU:
You will feel the world hear your words
You will challenge, try, create, confuse all because of your strong vision
You will impact people through your passion, pain, storytelling & experiences
Searching will serve a large role in your life
You will demand respect
You will lead
A linear path won't be interesting enough for you
Many people will truly love you


Love,
Mommy

5 comments:

Shannon- said...

Beautiful beautiful beautiful

Cindy said...

Beautiful.

S said...

You will feel the world hear your words. Wow.

Julie said...

Oh how beautiful. She is amazing, as are you. What a pair.

msl said...

Everything Julie said.